| (no subject) |
[Jun. 20th, 2006|06:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crushed | ] |
Vampires are assholes.. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|01:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  angry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Avenged Sevenfold-Bat Country | ] |
So much to write about, so little time to do it.
Well, for starters, Dave and I are no longer together. I`d get into the details, but I`d probably end up throwing the computer screen half way across the room, killing the petty students that have nothing better to do than to hide in library because they have no friends.
School is fine, just another year going by not as fast as I want it to.
Home life.. well, I`m still alive.
Relationships.. aren`t they interesting? I am currently with a man that drives me absolutely crazy, but that`s what I love so much about him. He`s trying to get his music career kicking, and so far, he`s had numerous offers to join bands and such. But he prefers to fly solo, and even though his aspirations are going to make him homeless one of these days, he trudges on. I`m very proud of him, and I know he`ll make it big (even if it is just only big enough to rock a garage :p )
Umm.. still working at Hot Topic. Almost got fired due to inadequet hours, but since my managers love me oh so much (and I`m saying this in the most sarcastic way managable) I`m still there. Still trying to get a raise.. fuck if that`ll ever happen :p
And yes, that is the update on thyself. I hope everyone whom I haven`t spoken to in awhile is doing alright. I miss all y`all, hope to chat to any of you some time soon.
And so I end this with being angry and overtly pissed off that I can`t make it to the Birthday Massacre concert tomorrow at the Avalon... FUCK ALL! |
|
|
| My weekend and troubles |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|09:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Depressing, sad music that`s making me run into things | ] |
You know those really important people in your life that give you happiness and a sense of importance?
Everyone has one of those in their life, sometimes more than one.
But then comes the day when they just.. leave. With no say or evidence where they have gone, they suddenly disappear and you are left with those burning questions...
where are they?
why are they gone?
what did I do?
And so it eats at you slowly as you wish they were dead, then wishing you were dead, and as you fade into wanting to completely forget them, you finally wish they didn`t exist.
What comes after that? I dunno, I`m still stuck at that non-existance part.
But I hope it`s peace of mind.. forgetting the bad parts and just looking back on what good they brought to your life.
But until that day comes (and you know who you are.. if not, you`re a dumb fuck) I wish you would come back. Sure, I might bitch and yell at you for god only knows how long, but don`t say you can`t blame me. Just an explanation, is all I want from you. After that, you can leave forever and I`ll be satisfied. But just know..
I`ll never stop supporting you. I may hate your guts, but I hold true to what I`ve always said and promised. So deal with it, teehee
(And hurry the fuck up, you have me listening to sad and depressing music that makes me cranky and run into things.. get your scrawny ass online and give me the well-deserved time to explain yourself)
Anyways, enough of that pointless shit that never gets read by the person I`m always referring to...
Just got back from camping, and after spending 5 days out there, I am fuckin tired. It was fun though, got to freeze my ass off in water that was a billion degrees below FUCKING COLD! At least the water was clean, as opposed to Utah Lake where you have to get a tetnis shot if you injure yourself in the water (no joke, it really happened to my friend Jeanie) But despite my nipples becoming as hard as diamonds, the trip was great.
4th of July was nice, we went to Heber and saw the fireworks that were only 200 feet away from where we were. Pretty cool stuff, actually took some decent pictures of them.
And so... yeah
I think that is all I have left to say |
|
|
| And to say this once more.. I forgot |
[Jun. 8th, 2005|08:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Birthday Massacre-Broken | ] |
Ok, I had this really depressing, pissy entry, but I decided to get rid of it..
So now that I have all this space to write more down, I think I`ll put a wittle poem here:
I was here and now I`m not
I went somewhere to smoke some pot
I wrote this poem to prove a point
Life aint shit without a joint
Teehee, I love this poem. The ex-smoker in me giggles in stupidity everytime I run this through my head. So yeah.. *rides little scooter, looks over and says..* Cioa
So ok, I have recently found myself asking this question: why is it everytime I am nice to someone, it gets taken for being flirty with them? I mean, am I really supposed to be a total bitch to everyone so that I don`t come off as a bit of a whore? Cause you know, I can be bitchy. I know, I`ve seen me do it. But the little bit of soul I still have makes me just want to give everyone compliments despite the fact that I hate their guts. So here I am (taking an example here) being nice to whats-his-nuts that I sit next to every other day. I`m nice, I give compliments, I even give him a hug at the end of the class period *everyone, here we go.. gasp* And so I`m all happy and whatnot, then here comes some barbie accessory orange tan thing-a-ma-bobber, giving me this "I saw you flirting with him" attitude. The demonic homicidal part of me wants to rip those fake tits right off her chest. But I smile, give her the mocking "I don`t care" look, and am on my way. But there is so many times I can do this before I start to go a little crazy. And as you can see, I`ve reached my limit. So here`s my question: is this flirting, or is it just being a simple human being? I`d really like to know, and I guess everyone`s opinion counts, right? NOT! But yeah.. for those of you who think I need a leash just because I like to be nice to people, really need to be given 12 overdoses of tranquilizer (Pilz-E is da shit) and leave me the fuck alone. Just because you like to act like you have a 2*4 shoved up your ass, doesn`t mean I have to.
And I just caught myself ranting. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[May. 31st, 2005|04:50 pm] |
Wow, 2 more weeks of school.. how depressing.
I mean, yay for summer and not having to do anything except work for a couple hours, but I have noticed that summer is when you lose the most contact with friends and such. Or maybe I`m just weird and have to learn to like that dreadful peice of shit known as a phone..
Anywho, I had a job interveiw on Friday and I`m hoping they call me back. It was a group interveiw type thing, so if we do get the job, we`ll here from them within this week *crosses fingers* I want that job.. so bad.
Things are seeming to get better, I guess. Still having problems at home and still feeling the same, but I do feel more at ease.
The one thing I hate the most, though, are these damn birth control pills. I`m not sexually active, and my girly stuff isn`t too badly out of whack, so I really have no use for them. And yet every night my mum checks to make sure I`m taking these dreadful little satan spawns.. my question is: WHY?! Mum says it`ll help when acne comes around. My argument: why pay for this expensive stuff when I can just get face wash for 3 bucks at Wal-Mart? They even make antibiotic cream stuff.. if my normal hormonic plague is her only excuse to have me on this stuff, than fuck it, I`m throwing this stuff away. All it`s doing is making me sick and from what I hear, it could give me cancer and other horrible stuff like that.
I honestly think that she doesn`t trust me. Well, let me rephrase: I don`t think she trusts in the fact that I won`t turn out to be just like her. To further explain, let us reveiw how I came to exist.. basically, she smoked marijuana with my real father (because she had nothing else to relate to with him) and the very next minute, she spreads her legs and we all know what happened after that.. ME! So anywho, she basically thinks that just because she can`t keep her legs crossed, means I can`t either.
I just wanna smack her silly.. I don`t think she realizes that sex is so far away for me, I`ll be moved out by the time I start making love (that being just an estimated guess) I just hate how she always thinks that I`m gonna give into peer pressure all the time. If I were the type of person that gave into pressure THAT easily, I`d be a whore. Honest to god, I`d be a freakin slut if I gave into the kind of pressure I`ve been handed time and again.
So basically, what I REALLY want to say: FUCK YOU MOM! I can appreciate you putting me in this world and being there when everything fell apart, but pounding your past on me is bullshit and I honestly don`t think I deserve it.
So yeah.. aren`t I just the most horrible person in the world? Talking shit on my mother.. someone ought to shoot me. I`d shoot me if I heard me saying such things. Well, we`re never gonna be perfect, so might as well embrace the bad parts and say "hey, it is what it is".
And this concludes my useless journal entry.. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 21st, 2005|08:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
You are a maniac
killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they
have or haven't done. You still want to kill
them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun.
Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe
you have some sort of mental problems or you
are this way because of previous deep scars,
only you know. But now you are sadistic and
maybe you only like to see a special group of
people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are
not the most social person in the bunch and
people think you are weird. That bothers you
somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself
with daydreaming about killing them. After all,
they have no idea what's coming.
Main weapon: Explosives and torture
equpiment
Quote: "Insanity: a perfect
rational adjustment to an insane world" -
R.D. Lang
Facial expression: Wicked smile
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
brought to you by Quizilla
Hehe.. I can just see this happening |
|
|
| Nothing |
[Apr. 15th, 2005|08:57 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
So time to update..
I have nothing to update with. All I have to report is I`m sick.
Whoop
And that I am a selfish human being that needs to wake up from my dream world and look at life for how it is, not how I want it to be..
Yes, that is all my pretties |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 11th, 2005|09:43 am] |
My journal is friends only
If you want to read it, then add me to your list and I shall do the same for you
Thank you |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jan. 22nd, 2005|07:22 pm] |
Perfect Personality Survery | Created by astrumn0x and taken 40 times on bzoink! | | .the basics. | | full name: | Darla DiEtta | | date of birth: | 12-04-88 | | do you act you age: | When I`m not acting like a 2 year-old, yeah | | eye color | Darkish blue | | hair color | Reddish, brownish, blackish | | astological sign: | Saggitarius | | pets: | They all died | | tattoos: | I will someday | | piercings: | A set on ears, both nipples | | righty or lefty: | Righty | | .what's your favorite... | | food: | Chinese | | song: | At the moment, Cold by Crossfade | | movie: | Nightmare Before Christmas | | holiday: | Halloween | | perfume/cologne: | Garden by Victoria Secret | | pizza topping: | Oooo..cheese and peperoni, can`t go wrong | | number: | 13 | | cereal: | Cinnamon Toast Crunch | | book: | Brave New World by Aldous Huxley | | .deep thoughts. | | do you live in the moment?: | When I force myself to, I`m always off in my little dream world | | do you think you're tolerant of others?: | I think I am very tolerant of others | | do you have any secrets?: | That`s a secret | | do you hate yourself?: | Most of the time | | do you have any bad habits?: | I have nervous habits of biting my nails and my entire body shakes for no reason | | do you like your handwriting?: | No | | what is your biggest fear?: | Losing all I hold dear | | can you sing?: | Anyone can sing, but that doesn`t exactly mean they`re good at it | | do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: | Never | | if you were another person, would you be friends with you?: | That would be so weird | | what is your #1 priority in life?: | To get away | | are you passive or agressive?: | Both | | are you a daredevil?: | Yes and no | | what is your greatest strength?: | Being myself | | ..your greatest weakness?: | Caring too much for those who could care less | | do you think you're emotionally strong?: | Eh, depends on what the subject is about | | is there anything you regret doing/not doing in your life?: | Yes, but don`t we all? | | what is the most important lesson you've learned in life so far?: | Shit happens, life goes on | | what fictional character are you most like?: | Marya from that book AfterImage | | are you wrongly percieved?: | If I am, I could care less | | .have you ever.. | | been out of the country?: | Almost | | broken a bone?: | Nope | | gone skinny dipping?: | Many times | | dated one of your best friends?: | Yes | | loved someone so much it made you cry?: | Yes | | decieved someone close to you?: | For their safety, yes | | broken the law?: | Oh man, the stories I could tell | | came close to dying?: | Yes | | gone an entire day without eatting?: | Yes | | .love. | | have you ever been in love?: | Yes | | how many people have you said it to?: | Only 2, and I meant them | | how many people have you REALLY been in love with?: | Again, only 2 | | how many people have you kissed?: | 6 | | how many people have you dated?: | 4 | | what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: | Eyes and personality | | do you believe in love at first sight?: | Yes | | do you remember your first love?: | Kinda hard to forget someone you hate so bad, you wonder why you still hold a part of them in your heart | | do you believe in soulmates?: | Yes | | have you ever kissed in the rain?: | Yes, and it was lovely | | what's the worst thing about the opposite sex? | How they sometimes lack in support when you need it | | what's the best? | Their sillyness and how they make you feel | | .who.. | | knows you best?: | Kamee and Dave | | have you known the longest?: | Kamee | | do you know the most about?: | Kamee | | do you consider your best friend?: | Kamee | | is most likely to end up in jail?: | If it isn`t me, then it`ll be Ryan | | can you go to with your problems?: | Kamee, Dave, Nell, Air, Dash | | do you want to get to know better?: | A couple of people | | do you spend the most time with?: | Tie between Dave and Kamee | | was the last person you laughed at?: | Ryan | | was the last person to disappoint you?: | Jason | | was the last person you saw a movie with?: | Dave | | was the last person you thought about?: | Dave | | was the last person to brighten your day?: | Dave | | was the last person you talked to on the phone?: | Heidi | | was the last person you talked to on IM?: | Dave | | was the last person you saw?: | Dave | | .music. | | what song do you swear was written about your life?: | Home by 3 Days Grace | | what's the most embarassing CD you own?: | One I already got rid of | | what's the best CD you own?: | Hell, all of them | | what song do you absolutely hate? | Peices Of Me by Ashlee Simpson | | do you sing in the shower?: | Hell yes! | | what song reminds you of that someone special?: | Unforgettable by Nat King Cole | | .random. | | what's the scariest movie you've ever seen?: | Blair Witch Project.. scared me shitless | | what's the last thing you ate? | Chicken | | what's your favorite quote? | You`re nucking futs! | | who/what is on your 2005 calendar?: | I don`t have one | | do you like chocolate?: | It is my God | | have you ever wished on a shooting star?: | Many times, they never come true though | | the best halloween costume you've ever worn was: | I was a giant penis one year | | what's the best/worst feeling in the world?: | Love/Loneliness | | if you win the lotto, what would you do with the money?: | Give it to people who deserve it | | so..is the glass half empty or half full? | Was it filled or did someone drink out of it? | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
|
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8){kind=small}
darla_dietta's journal